A Letter To God :)

There is a great deal of depression that has overtaken my soul,
It floods deep within, into every inch that makes me whole.
I wonder and worry of thought throughout the day,
What is to come, to my dismay.
As a flood of tears pour out of me in all my expressions, 
more and more comes, more and more depression.

I assure myself everything is ok!
But who am I fooling?
Then I burst into a spirit of rage.
I have questions, and there are answers.
But I'm afraid and much too weak,
When I try to explain,
I hear I'm hearing wrong and need to be meek.
But this is how I feel, there's no wrong or right,
But as I battle with myself, I always lose the fight.

I feel intimidated sometimes by others,
But as I said "This is how I feel"
The pain in me is very real.
I lose control, my thought go wild,
and here I am only a child.
If only you knew what I thought,
If only you knew what I fought.
I need my thoughts held captive.

Oh God, assure me I'm thinking normal 
and you'll help me think positive.
I'm hurting, I need you! 
Please don't give up on me!
One day I will always make you smile!
Your Child
SilentSpeaker SilentSpeaker
22-25, F
3 Responses Sep 27, 2011

Silent Speaker, several months have passed since you wrote this post. Has anything changed? Are you still in this place? :)Reproof

I too have suffered with depression.God has healed my soul.He can give you your joy back if you ask him.Jesus came to this world so that we could have life and have it more abunduntly.God doesn't want us to worry all the time. He wants us to enjoy life.Try starting your day in the morning praising and thanking God for your dayand ask him to help you have joy in your day.That is what i do every morning and it really helps my day to go good.If you need a friend to talk to just email me back. Peace and love to you my friend. God bless

G-d doesn't think the same way we do. Normal isn't necessarily good. <br />
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I am sure He loves you and is working on teaching you what you need to know... Remember to the ancient of days you are still a very young child.