Do I Really Trust God?

Now that is a tough question . Yes, of course I trust Him! I am a Christian, a follower of Jesus Christ after all. But, do I really trust Him? To answer that question honestly, for me, requires a thorough examination of my heart, my mind and my soul. Do my actions reflect a heart that is calm and confident in the fact that, though the storms rage around me, He will make every situation work out for good? Does my thinking convey a willingness to be open to what He may have in store for me, a direction that I need to take that is far from my own desires? Is my soul in tune to listening for and hearing that still, small voice that He often uses, to get me to pay attention and get to that place where I am abiding in Him? I know that I do want to trust Him, with everything that I've got, with all that I am...not half - heartedly, but completely. In reality though, it seems I do not trust Him, or at least as deeply as I should. A sobering realization for certain...like awakening from a delightful dream, only to find that everything isn't rose colored and wonderful when my dyes truly come into focus. To use that old cliche, "He never promised me a rose garden", not at all, but He did promise to see me through whatever I face, whatever it is that I am struggling with...for that reason alone, I will trust in Him...and I know I will have no need to look back, but enjoy my journey going forward. Peace