Everything I Do Is An Escape

I just realized something.

 

Most everything I do in my life is just a way for me to escape. Even back as far as 4th grade, when I created my first fictional world with a friend, I was just trying to escape.

My parents... They continue to control me in every way. I'm not allowed to live my own life, to make my own experiences, to learn from my own mistakes. They continue to keep me from practicing the beliefs I want, to believing the things I want, and from doing the important things that I wish to do.

I've been trying all my life to escape... and I realize that I have to do something about this. It's not right for me to be treated this way. I have to speak up against those who are oppressing me, and make a choice. Do I care more about them being happy, or about me being happy? Should I allow them to control my life, or should I put my foot down?

 

I think I know what I need to do, and what I need to say.

exploringsecrets exploringsecrets
22-25, M
2 Responses Mar 4, 2010

Well, the important things is that you know what to do and what to say to break from feeling oppressed and deprived from the life you want to have. That's a gigantic start, and the very pinnacle of what will ultimately allow you to be yourself--at your own time through what's best known as trial and error--but each trial and error will be yours instead of someone else's. I will write a story about a child and his willful attitude. Be looking forward to that story. It isn't wow, but it is a story--something for us to ponder a bit. I will add music, from my imagination to yours, to that story. In the mean time, stay busy breaking free.

And you are strong for doing that, and finally break away to make you first decision. Then you could learn from your own mistakes and chase after the dreams you've always wanted to :) But remember that parents just want the best for you. Hear them out but dont let them control you :)