I try so hard to be kind to everyone, but its like they freaking hate me! I want to kill myself, I want to know if I'm gay or not, and I just need answers. I remember liking this boy in 5th grade.... Okay I still like him, but you get the point. I had a friend who insulted me all the time, and when I said a small joke, he fell apart. He told the loudmouth girl in my class ( not trying to be judge mental Kayleigh:/ ) and she told him, and the whole class about me liking him. I hated my so called friend so much, but now I just feel like I want to kill myself! Please talk to me immediately someone :(
TaffyBranchoff TaffyBranchoff
16-17, M
2 Responses Aug 17, 2014

Hugs!! I also read your 1st story and it's incredibly heartbreaking. All I can say is that you need professional counselling to get through all these issues. Go to your school counselor for a referral. When you go to your school counselor tell him you need to sort out several issues. a) the rape b) your sexual preference c) bullying d) depression. These are all actually interrelated and need to be all addressed. Remember try to be as direct and clear about your goals in counselling. It's important for you to not only talk about your feelings and the impact the above issues have on your life but you also need coping strategies that they counselor should help you obtain. Good luck and remember nothing is ever a hopeless situation. Have faith in yourself. You are stronger than you know!

Thank you so much

You are very welcome! Good luck and let us know how it goes.

Relax, you will be okay. Word got out my friend looks at some rather inappropriate things on the internet, and the whole school was making fun of him. He stopped letting it bug him, people kept talking about it but eventually lost interest because they noticed he didn't care what they thought of him. If you don't let it bug you, they'll eventually stop, seeing as it is pointless. Don't worry about being gay or not. It's fine. And if they are that judgemental, then ignore them. It's easier said than done, I know but you gotta manage to pull through. Best wishes and I hope things go better for you.

It's not that easy

Try reading my first experience please

Thanks for trying though :)

*after reading your first story* Holy **** why didn't you just tell an adult or the police or something o.O

I was six tears old, what could I have done?

I know... but you probably should have at least told someone by now who could have done something. Idk when he stopped but jeez... That sucks man.

He stopped when I was eight, near when he decided to let his friends do the job with him

I was the most adorable little boy anyways, so how could I blame him ? Is that what I should be saying ? I really don't know :(

Nah, he had issues. That's why he had did that. There is no justifying what he did.

I feel like I'm about to cry .... Thank you so much for helping me :)

You're welcome. If I can do anything else for you, don't hesitate to let me know.

Can I describe the story a little better? It makes me feel a lot better to tell you that way then to give you little pieces

sure, it might be better if you message me it though, unless you wanna put it here of course.

He kept on telling me that I'm a toy, and that as soon as I break, as in it hurts so much that I bleed, he would throw me away

And that's the exact same bull that happened

*sighs* some people... I really don't know what to say... I just can hope that things go better for you... Hate feeling helpless ;-;

I'll message it :)

Unless the other person who responded wants to hear too

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