Every Day

Every day I try to be the person I want to be.  i want to be good, I am not saying perfect because i know that is not possible.  I try so hard to be a good mother, I try hard to be a good wife.  i have been hurt trying to be the good daughter, to two parents that have high expectations, don't we all as parents? 

I try to be a good friend and i believe i have succeeded in that area , I will give my last to people when i have it to give.  I try to give to my marriage , to my husband even when i don't want to.  I have been in a lot of pain and i try not to take e the pain meds until i cant handle it anymore.

I try to be patient with my children, that is a short time period though, but i am trying to work on that.  I try to pay attention to myself, long hot baths and candles.  i try to love myself but a lot of times i get so tied up with other people that i forget who i am.  I try to speak softly and love gently , and give freely , and touch tenderly.  i try to be perfectly me.  Allot of time i think i fail myself before i fail others.  I try in everything i do , and I don't feel like a lot of times it is good enough.  No one makes me feel less than i make myself feel.  I am trying to fix that....LOL

luvbugg77 luvbugg77
26-30, F
1 Response Apr 6, 2007

You say you often fall short of your expectations and that of others. But what kind of scale do you use to judge your self so harshly. People like you, restores my faith in humanity, and your “short-comings” (failures to be best possible wife/mother/daughter etc) is what humanizes you. I wish you could realize that your contribution to the world even though underappreciated, grows manifolds in the eyes of God and many people who read our stories. You are amazing!