I Understand Schizophrenia
Please listen to “A Rose” by Thomas Newman while reading.
Thank you.- - -
In my head,
I am always welcome.
I hate to be alone.
I am always surrounded.
Who’s there?
I am always known.
Oh, it’s just you.
I am always justified.
Don’t worry, I’ll keep you safe.
I am always protected.
It’ll be our little secret.
I am always hidden.
I won’t give you away.
I am always forgiving.
What shall we do together?
I am always persuasive.
Let’s go play!
I am always entertaining.
Can they play too?
I am always hesitant.
I’m so happy with you.
I am always loved.
Hey, where did you go?
I am always elusive.
What happened to my friends?
I am always concealing.
What are these scars?
I am always manipulating.
This isn’t fun anymore...
I am always right.
You’re scaring me...
I am always right.
Is this a dream?
I am always right.
Stop.
I am always right.
STOP IT.
I am always right.
I just want you to go away...
I can’t.
... because I am always “there”.
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Will revise later.
Just a snippet from my deteriorating mind.
Critiques are encouraged. (: