I sufferered from insecurities even as a small child. I used to hear a voice inside saying 'dont smile because it makes you ugly'. So when I was caught off guard and actually laughed I would quickly cover up my face. That was one of my earliest memories from school.. so anyway, as I grew up I kind of learned not to listen to them. I developed an argumentative confident voice to be louder in my head than the negative. The loud voice became my confidence. Then when I was 22 something happened to me that kicked me straight into a non-reality. A black world, where I really couldn't see any light.
And then I met my partner. I fell in love because he understood. He had been where I had been and that was such a strong bond.
But then after the golden sunshine sparkle that life has when your in love, the clouds started creeping in and it became apparent that he never got out of his bubble, he was still there when we met and so was I.
So I had to start a journey to understand. I for me and my partner at least, I understand schizophrenia.