Sad, Lonely and Confused

So I can't believe I'm here, but here I am. I am so unhappy in my marriage. I still love my husband sometimes but more and more often I find that I despise him. I never knew someone's soulmate could turn around and be so incredibly selfish. He is fourty years old and completely juvenile. We have a beautiful newborn baby girl who has just turned six weeks old and all he He takes medication for depression and sometimes forgets to take it and I have to put up with a day or two when he is pathologically irritable and aggressive. Can you imagine how I feel having my baby exposed to that? The worst thing of all is I can't respect someone who thinks hanging out with their mates at the pub is more important and exciting than being with his family. I just can't respect it. Then he offers to take care of the baby but he's been drinking and of course I don't want him to do it then. He's pretty clever and I think he knows that and is manipulating me. He constantly ******* about his weight and how it is ruining his life and I wish he would stop being so self absorbed and just frigging do something about it or stop inflicting his bad moods on people. I just don't know what to do. I am at the end of my tether. I rang him before about ten times but he didn't answer hius phone. So now I'm wondering if he's having an affair. He finally called me back but i dunno im sus on things. He said he would come home and look after the baby but he said that slurring his words so what good is that to me?? Everytime I need him he attacks me. God he is selfish. I am so sad. I thought he was my best friend he tells me he is and that he loves me but his actions are just mind boggling selfish. Sometimes I want to kill him. I have already been in an abusive relationship and I can't take much m ore.

sad1 sad1
36-40
3 Responses Mar 20, 2009

I am also in a situation of unhappiness, being lonely, but married. I don't get it, and my husand is 45, ? 4 U I see this was wrote in 09, are u still w/him? Has anything changed?<br />
Just wondering what my outcome might be

I am also in a situation of unhappiness, being lonely, but married. I don't get it, and my husand is 45, ? 4 U I see this was wrote in 09, are u still w/him? Has anything changed?<br />
Just wondering what my outcome might be

I am sorry to hear you are so unhappy. I was marreid for 20 years and learned the key to a healthy marriage is communication. have you tried talking to your husband about how you are feeling. PS Yry doing it when both of you are in a calm mood. Good Luck