As I Hope For Common Ground

The world I live in is a weird one, filled with hidden memories and potholes. Reality bends and twists around a core of doubt.

PTSD is a b*tch sometimes.  Okay, all the time.

I can't expect you, some random reader outside my head to understand.  I see your eyes glaze over when I talk of triggers and disassociation and flashbacks.  Even when you want to help, to understand, you can't.

You don't dwell inside my head.

And so I quote.

I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell.  I know right now you can't tell, but stay a while and then you'll see a different side of me.  I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired...

And I don't want the whole world to see me, 'cause I don't think that they'll understand.  When everything's made to be broken, I just want you to know who I am.

Somewhere between the soul and slot machine is where I find myself again

You may not understand me.  I may cause even more confusion as I quote.  But maybe, just maybe I can strike a common chord.  Perhaps you are just a little unwell.  Maybe you just want someone to know who you are.  Or maybe you wonder if you would have followed down your chosen road, or only wished that you can be.

It doesn't much matter, really.  Because time after time we find solace and strength in lyrics.  We find that

You're never alone 'cause you can put on the 'phones and let the drummer tell your heart what to do.

Keep on believin'!

(Songs, in order of use:
Unwell, Matchbox 20
Iris, Goo Goo Dolls
Kyrie, Mr. Mister
Rock'n'Roll Dreams Come Through, Meatloaf)
Plaid Plaid
31-35, F
1 Response Dec 5, 2012

Man, i the random reader understand well... and agree PTSD sucks and am to familiar with the words triggers, flashbacks and lived most of my life a walking head and disassociated with my body and self. As weird as it may sound i feel happy to know there are people out there that can relate to my experiences.

Once again, thank you, Loveable1! I understand feeling gratefully sad to know that there are others like me. I wouldn't wish PTSD on anyone, but I'm glad to know I'm not as alone as I feel.