I, I, I, I, And More I's
In person, I barely talk at all, except to my very best friends, but when I do, I still feel like I'm talking about myself too much. I never really learned the art of conversation. Rather than ask questions about the other person, I end up telling little stories about myself or things I've done, and then I get annoyed when the conversation falls flat. For this reason, I try hard to avoid talking about myself. Unfortunately, that then saddles the other person with the burden of keeping the conversation going, which also results in the conversation fizzling out. I never know what to say to people, except to tell them how I can relate to what they just said. It annoys me so much, but I have no idea what to do to fix it. And even when I do talk, I bore myself with my little stories, because I've told them to others already or they just don't interest me, but I still say them just for the sake of trying to maintain a conversation. I feel worse when a conversation dies than I do when I tell my boring stories, but I still hate talking about myself and usually avoid it. If I'm asked a question about myself, I'll answer, then try to turn the focus back on them. I bore myself when I talk, but my friends tell me I barely talk. It is probably just a mental issue, and I just need to get over it. I don't know.
Online, I go on for many long paragraphs about myself when I'm writing something like the stories here on EP. When I'm chatting, I also talk mostly about me. I hate doing it, but...I can't help it. I'm sorry if I've done this too you. I know I do it a lot when I answer messages or questions, and it really annoys me. In the Q&A section, everyone else has these short 1-3 line answers, and mine you need to scroll down to read the whole thing. I don't know why I do it, or even how I do it. For a while, I tried being "clear and concise," only writing the bare minimum to respond, but then I felt I wasn't answering the questions to the best of my ability. I know nobody wants to read long answers, and a lot of people just skip over them if they're too long, but I can't help it. And I know that a lot of times, I explain my answers in much more depth than was asked for, and often I even throw in unnecessary examples. I write too much...just like here...so this is where I'll end it.