A Letter From Your Disease......

Hello my addict, your disease calling here........
I am your new best friend...the one you can't be with out......
I will never let you sleep or put your mind at ease, I will always be here, no matter where you go, no matter where you try and hide, I am smarter than you and I am in control!
I will make you feel the need, the hunger that tears at you inside, like a wild animal,
  Family, friends, boyfriends, girlfriends, lovers, husbands and wives, all loved ones..they will no longer matter any more, for I am all the family you will need now....
I will take everything you got, and still want so much more, and I will make you give more!
I was there for you in the good times, the fun times, but mostly the bad times,
I have made you feel artificially happy, but in the end your consumed with the deepest sadness and deep self hate brought to you by my dark gifts,
  You will ie to everyone and say I am not real, and hate your self even more, for this is what I feed on...
but if that is not the case, why can't you put my tiny little pills down? throw away my powder and stay away? you love me! you can't deny it, you try, but you can't....
I come in so many wonderful tempting forms, shapes and sizes, deceit and lies, I will turn you from everyone, you will see...your humiliation is my win,
I will turn you away from everyone who matters in your life, I will turn you away from everyone who tries to take you away from me, it's you and I now...we will spend all eternity together....
I will embrace you in my very evil arms, for I am a different kind of lover, one who will never set you free, spend our life together, doesn't that make you happy? there is no divorce here, till death do us apart...
  Don't you dare let those people tell you what I am about, because you just might find away to escape from me, and that just will not do, I do not take rejection well....but most know all about me and still proceed, that deadly curiosity....
So well here I go, I will be on my way, to my next victim...and the one after that,
I have so much to say, so when you think I am gone and your finely at ease...think your free...just rememeber this, I have left my deep many scars within you, I will always be your disease, and you will always be my little addict,
I will be here to haunt you, always reminding you just what you were and what you did, and I will always be waiting for your return, a life time reservation....if you ever dare to come back.....
  Just a little letter from your disease......

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26-30
1 Response Dec 14, 2012

Amen. and congrats, 15 years is awesome (I'm guessing it must be 16 now)
almost 18 years for me. Happy Joyous and free.
One of my favorite quotes...
"Cling to the thought that, in God's hands, the dark past is the greatest possession you have - the key to life and happiness for others. With it, you can avert death and misery for them." p.124 BB