Changing Through Negative Experiences

I used to be that girl that would always say "yes" and "sure" to everything. I need help with this, can I have that, let me borrow, etc. It has been two years since I broke up with my ex and I still feel anger towards him. He leaves a bitter taste in my mouth-one that leaves me with great disdain. Throughout my life, I have ended many relationships with friends, family and boyfriends when they do me wrong for too long. It has made me an angry person on the inside. On the outside, I am still youthful, willing, adventurous, and humorous-but the inside..well, it feels like there is a hole that is hard to fill. I have been with someone who treats me great for almost two years now, but I feel that I have not given him all of me because I still feel wrapped in chains. I used to be so copacetic about everything and was able to let everything go. I cannot let this go. It has been two years. What should I do? I just want to move away. Nobody ever returns to the way they used to be.

HollyLuya HollyLuya
22-25, F
Jul 14, 2010