One Regret

It started not to long it was late at night, and I was texting my EX we were arguing over the same **** he always accuses me of cheating or being with another guy anywho. I was really dealing with alot family issues and love life issues, I can't really explain to you what else was going but, Alot of pressure bulit up and then I started to cry and I was upset with my self so I went to the bathroom and broke apart a razor and used the blades to cut my thighs not deepp but just a little slit , so that i can see blood coming out . When i did it i couldnt stop it, It burn but after the burn it was a little pleasure then after that I feel asleep with the blood still coming out of me I cut myself over 86 times , ( not sure the exact ) but when I woke up it was this nasty purple blood well it was dried and really hard to get off , I wouldnt want anyone else to cut themselves because everytime i look at my thighs i think what the hell have I became , and they leave really ugly scars