Self Injury

I started when i was in high school at the time i didnt really know why i was doing it.  By the time i was in my senior i had stopped.  Then when i was a junior in college i was sexually assulted.  After that i started cutting again and often.   Whenever i would get upset it was the only way i could calm down.  After i would do it i had a great sense of calm.  I did it off and on for about 5 years.  It has been a year now since the last time i cut myself.  I think about it all the time, but i know it is something i can never do again.
clancyfan clancyfan
22-25, F
3 Responses Oct 23, 2006

do you still have the scars if so how do u hide them? i have scars but i dont want to tell my parents because im scared but how do u hid them?

Exactly.. well put. The calming sensation of the cuts, I did it a lot but then my mom pulled me out of school and now I'm doing better.

I do know how you feel, it does make you feel calm and that everything is kinda in its place afterwards