I Actually Regret It Now.

At the time in my life when I started cutting I just didn't care about anything, even living. I had a hard time when my mother died. I went through alot of depression and mental issues. I cut my arms, legs, and stomache. I did than just sometimes to see if I was even alive. The pain reassured me I was. After awhile it becomes like an addiction. You do it just cause you believe it makes you feel better. Even 2 years without doing it I started doing it again. Not as much though. Now I haven't done it at all in 3 years. Only Once did I have a quick urge. But I am doing much better mentally since this time in my life. Now I have all these nasty scars mostly on my arms. I forget about them whenever I meet someone new, however I am sure they notice. I wish that I would have never started doing it. We can't change the past, but we can learn from it. I hope any who are suffering from this I hope you can recover like I did.
Tara277 Tara277
31-35, F
May 15, 2012