Bittersweet

I used to cut for about 3 years on a regular basis. In some ways, I don't regret it. At the time it was all I had and I think in some respects it saved my life. I don't know how I would have coped without a release and then it was the only release I had. I do regret it now, two years without cutting later, since the scars are still quite visible. For a while I refused to wear t-shirts, shorts or skirts to avoid people making fun of me for it, but now I just wear what the hell I want and dammned what other people think. I just hope they aren't permanent, because they remind me of times in my life that I'd rather forget.