It's been awhile now since I cut, but I can't say that I haven't wanted to. I want to cut right now. Part of me wants to cut that vein running in a vertical blue stripe. Part of me wants to see if I really will bleed to death before someone notices or before I call 9-1-1 or before I stop it because I really don't want to die, I just want to bleed. I don't really care about the pain - it only hurts for a minute - and then the cuts are bleeding and then you know you're alive cause it's not just a blue line anymore. It's something more, it's life, and you can see it running across your arm. The other thought is what word would go best with today? Maybe "la vida amor" or "la vida loca" or "
frankiewalkingdeadgirl frankiewalkingdeadgirl
18-21, F
Apr 2, 2009