I Used to Do Crystal Meth
I never thought that i would end up in this position. Going through these withdrawals. I didn't understand before how people and family and friends I knew could get so hooked and lose the things they wanted and cared for the most, I didn't understand until it happened to me.
I started off using one thing, then it only pushed me to move up to the next drug and the next drug until I wasn't just doing one drug at a time, I started off smoking weed at 15, then I played around with prescription pills ( mixing hydro codeine with promethazine) taking Xanax I went from taking a half to needing 5 or six to get high and when i needed more than that i quit and started taking ecstasy. My tolerance kept getting stronger, I kept needing more pills to get high, so I needed something better. At work I always seen girls snorting coke and I got curious. I girl I knew gave me a sample and that one small line had me coming back wanting more and paying whatever I needed to get it. I was doing so much I hadn't notice the massive weight I was losing. I was snorting while i had massive nose bleeds.one time i had gotten so numb in the face, i was talking to a friend and in the middle of my sentence she jumps up and tells me to look at my face and i turn to the mirror and blood is running down my nose and lips i had no idea because I was so high.friends and family that only came around when they needed something. I was letting people step all over me. Noone helped, and noone cared. So I had moved up to the " next best thing". Crystal meth. That all started when the person that I was getting the coke from had been cutting it with meth. I found out weeks after buying from him daily and I was surprised for moment but had noone else to get the coke from and needed it so bad that I kept buying anyway. I went from snorting meth with coke, to snorting meth alone, to letting someone actually show me how to smoke it . And that became my worst nightmare. I was south worse, and deep down I knew it that I had to so stop but I didn't want to. I was loving the feeling way to much. But the drug was not loving me back. I was losing more And more weight , I was losing my hair, and I felt like I was seriously losing my mind. I did things I'm embarrassed to even think about. One day, in a public restroom I was alone and badly needed to take a hit. I broke the pipe I had so I had to make one, i found an empty Pepsi can, so I cut it in half , I also needed a way to smoke it, I dug through the trash can, no straw , nothing but used tampon applicators, it wasn't as good but I used it in replacement of the straw. It's embarrassing and scary that I needed a hit so bad that I literally found whatever I could just to smoke. I was in the bathroom for almost 45 minutes until someone came and got me.
I thought I'd never escape from this. I was always positive that this was how my life was going to end, by overdosing . Fortunately one brave and amazing person stood up for me and stuck by me through thick and thin. I am more than thankful that he came into my life. With me being far too embarrassed and paranoid to go into a rehab when he offered to take me, he helped me get an apartment and for the first few weeks we had treated it as if it were a center. I stayed inside for weeks and weeks without any drugs, alcohol, or even cigarettes, I was getting fresh air on the patio and doing things like writing and drawing to keep my mind busy. It wasn't until then that I realized how much the drugs didnt agree with me. I was so afraid to be left alone even for a few moments. I was constantly hearing laughing and talking
And my name being yelled I heard crying . I felt sad then angry and in a blur all in a matter of seconds. I craved coke and meth like people would crave food and water. I felt like someone was always after me or that someone was always hiding in the house when I was alone. I have insomnia till this day and can only get in a few hours of sleep if really concentrate on going to bed. It was a mission gaining a normal weight back and thankfully with the help of birth control I managed . But he was there for me the whole time. Like a REAL friend. Keeping me away from the drugs instead of joining me. I had sacrificed a lot for my friends and family and only he stepped in and didnt back down to help me through . And for that I love and thank him. He saved me life when even I , at the time, didnt want to. I'm only a few months sober now but he is still by my side and I am still getting through this. I am 20 years old now and a healthy young woman pushing forward.
I started off using one thing, then it only pushed me to move up to the next drug and the next drug until I wasn't just doing one drug at a time, I started off smoking weed at 15, then I played around with presc
I thought I'd never escape from this. I was always positive that this was how my life was going to end, by overdosing . Fortunately one brave and amazing person stood up for me and stuck by me through thick and thin. I am more than thankful that he came into my life. With me being far too embarrassed and paranoid to go into a rehab when he offered to take me, he helped me get an apartment and for the first few weeks we had treated it as if it were a center. I stayed inside for weeks and weeks without any drugs, alcohol, or even cigarettes, I was getting fresh air on the patio and doing things like writing and drawing to keep my mind busy. It wasn't until then that I realized how much the drugs didnt agree with me. I was so afraid to be left alone even for a few moments. I was constantly hearing laughing and talking
And my name being yelled I heard crying . I felt sad then angry and in a blur all in a matter of seconds. I craved coke and meth like people would crave food and water. I felt like someone was always after me or that someone was always hiding in the house when I was alone. I have insomnia till this day and can only get in a few hours of sleep if really concentrate on going to bed. It was a mission gaining a normal weight back and thankfully with the help of birth control I managed . But he was there for me the whole time. Like a REAL friend. Keeping me away from the drugs instead of joining me. I had sacrificed a lot for my friends and family and only he stepped in and didnt back down to help me through . And for that I love and thank him. He saved me life when even I , at the time, didnt want to. I'm only a few months sober now but he is still by my side and I am still getting through this. I am 20 years old now and a healthy young woman pushing forward.
By:
Littlekai
Age:
18-21
,
Female
