Self Harm

I used to cut myself I'm 13 and in the 7th grade i started cutting I was feeling depressed and life was just becoming dark there seemed to be no way out . I was teased and bullied in school and I was constantly being called fat by my older brother which made me self concious of how I looked. I hid the cuts wearing long sleeves and my bracelets at first it was only one cut but soon it became a row . One day i wore a tank top my brother noticed the cuts and called me emo my mom yelled and cursed me out saying she would send me to a psychiatrist I stopped after that day. I even resorted to lying to my friends telling them it was dog scratches ... Im now in 8th grade I told both my friends the truth when I started up cutting and I promised them I wouldn't do it anymore I have kept my promise it has been a year and a few months but I still have urges my aunt passed away a few days ago and this has been hard for me I was so close to her I didn't cry at her funeral I knew I had to be strong for my mother and everyone else but I just wish I had a way to release my feelings because right now I feel like cutting will make me feel better make me feel like life has more meaning then it does now because right now I'm feeling like my life is going down the drain. If anyone can give me advice on how to stop the urges I would be really grateful thanks. :)
MidnightEclispe MidnightEclispe
13-15
1 Response May 20, 2012

I would say do something to distract yourself, something that you enjoy doing and makes you happy. Just take a moment to realize how far you've come since you first cut and be proud of yourself for that. Or if you really need to talk to a close friend or someone.