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I Fret Too Much About What I Say And It Translates To This...awkwardness.

I don't start conversations because, well, I'm just no good at it. I've never been a terribly social person, and find that I have quite a lot of anxiety when considering approaching or talking to someone new. 

 

I'm the type of person who'll sit and stare at the phone for half an hour before ever touching a number to call someone. I'll rewrite a text fifteen times before sending it and then fret about not being eloquent enough. 

 

So what I'm trying to say is, if you want to speak to me, don't wait for me to speak first. 

 

Chances are if someone says something to me, I'll write back. :) 
lastleafoffall lastleafoffall 26-30, F 3 Responses Jan 11, 2011

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I am the same way. Actually, I'm not very good at conversation in general, probably because of the fact that I fret so much about what to say. I do sometimes try to initiate, but it just ends up pretty awkward. And about what you said about texting.. i'm the same as well! As for phone calls.. I avoid calling or answering my phone as often as I can... :/

i can relate to that... (hell can freeze over while people like us wait for a response to our tortured posts).....<br />
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I wrote this years ago.... it sums up my affinity with your situation:<br />
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Tortured Intravert<br />
- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - <br />
My eyes roam from face to face.<br />
I'm a tortured introvert.<br />
Me is centred on myself, I'm too scared to move my mouth.<br />
I'm separated by a mental gulf.<br />
Self obsorbed my mind consumed.<br />
Entombed - I wait for my life to be exhumed.<br />
I have this air and no-one cares, what I say, that I'm there.<br />
I want so much to be a part, but where?<br />
Nervous - Clumsy - Selfconcious.<br />
I'm in your gathering scared and alone.<br />
My feeble attempts to connect with you struggle from the corner of a mind fortified.<br />
Sometimes I let go and shine, a short lived testony of a legacy thats mine.<br />
Hidden from view, lost in time.<br />
My inherent destiny untapped, sublime.

Oh, I'm aware that I allow myself to miss out on a lot of life due to my...insane amounts of anxiety regarding silly little things. <br />
Although it feels like an uphill battle sometimes, I am trying to work on it. :)