Why Worry Everything Is F'd Up Already.I saw a news cast today and one of the stories was about unemployment extension cancellation in California. I am currently unemployed and recently received a letter informing me of an automatic extension. I have been looking for work but after months of no luck I started trying to build a home business in art and design. The unemployment has given me the means to pay my bills and while I have had no luck on the job front I have had some success as an artist. In these troubled times my small success in the art community has been a serious blessing. I was an exemplary employee and ex co-workers have said that I was a victim of circumstance. There was this odd rule put into effect and I unknowingly broke it. I was told that if they hadn't had to let so many people go for the same reason just the week before that I would never have been let go. Still sucks for me. I chose to look at this as a positive time for change. When had I ever decided to work in that field anyway?
So what if I still worry? You can only lose so much before you start to say F it. What does it matter any way. I'm just going to give it up to god and see what happens. When I was fully in control and planning everything a glitch in the matrix F'd up my plans. Now, I have made it a point to quit planning everything. I had a great paying job, insurance, a great place in Laguna beach and in a few months that all went to ****. I lost my job/insurance and the lady who owned my house lost her job as well.
What did I learn? no one is safe from the glitches in life. Plan all you want because we are not in control. I used to worry so much more when I had it all figured out. Now, I don't know what's worthy of worry. I have no job, I moved back in with the parents, and I may have no unemployment to tide me over till I can get it back to good.
I'm over worrying about it. I don't care about such weighty things. Now I only sweat the small stuff like what package to use when I have to ship something I sold on ebay.