I Have A Dwindling Friendship

My friend and I have been friends for many years, and have never fought or had any problems with each other. Now, we are both in high school, and things are changing. Especially this year. She does not care about school anymore. Or anything, really. Nothing serious. Just that kind of teenagery “I don’t give a ****” kind of attitude. She always used to be so nice and cheerful, but now she can always seem find something to be pissed about. I have noticed over the years that she would sometimes bring it on herself, and I always guessed that she was looking for attention. Our other friends, who haven’t known her as long, do not know this, so she always gets their sympathy.

It is also the little things that are changing. Before, I would wait for her after class if she had to ask the teacher a question or stay to finish up a quiz. Now, I still wait for her, sometimes missing lunch because of it, just because she asked me to. I never ask her to wait for me, and she doesn’t; she just books it to lunch or her next class, leaving me back in the dust, and I think that the courtesy should be there. She also does not respect my opinions or what I like to do with my own time. For example, I would say, “Star Trek is cool” and she would say “Not really”. I know that does not sound very bad, but this is her response to basically everything I have to say. She also laughs at me for being in the gay/straight alliance group.

I am not perfect either. I can lose my patience with her and I can be kind of a jerk sometimes. This is mostly because I do not know what to say sometimes. I am a bit socially awkward, and I tend to say things without thinking sometimes, which I believe is some of the cause for our problems, and I do not know how to change that.

The things I mentioned above, among others, made me kind of give up on her for a while. We did not really talk as much, but it was inevitable for us not to be friends, because we have assigned seats next to each other in almost every class. Nowadays, we still talk and I still consider her my best friend, but that is mostly because I do not have very many of them. I do not think we will ever be as close as we once were, but I still want her to be my friend. I am not very good at talking about things like this, but I would like to bring all this to her attention without offending her or making things worse between us, as I usually do when I try. I know it is normal for friends to change, but I do not want them to. Does anyone have any ideas as to how I can fix this? I would really still like to be her friend, but I do not think I can if things continue the way they are.
harrypotterfantng harrypotterfantng
18-21, F
Dec 2, 2012