Jackal And HydeI really thought you were the one, but I guess I was wrong. I feel a bit decieved and used. I kind of thought I was with a conn. But we go through life thinking that everything is all good and fine and next minute something happens out of the blue that makes you think twice about the guy your with.
I mean all in all you think he is like the sweetest guy in the world and that he is your prince in shining armour and that you are just in awe of him and be dazzled by his charming ways because he's handsome, he's got a great body, he's got a well paid job, and he has a well off income.
But then you start to see for what he truly is and its something that is totally out of character. You never saw it coming. I tried to adjust to his ways by pleasing him. But he was like jackal and hyde. I didn't know what kind of mood he would be in next. One minute hes happy and good, the next minute he would be so selfish and mean.
I was with a control freak, but he controlled me in a way that I did not know he was controlling me at all. All I knew was that we were in love and I was obsessed about him. He was taking over my life, my thoughts and my well being.
Well the good news is that I have left the building. It's over with him now. Im tired of wasting my time, energy and love on a selfish person. I'm tired of playing the game of love and it will take me a while to get back in it again.
So I'm going to bide my time into other things to keep me busy. Focus on myself alot more and not let myself get into the love game for a while till I heal in time.