How You Would You Wait To Have A Life Of Your Own?I have been waiting over 30 years for a nice man to treat me right... and he still has not come along.
I have been waiting patiently for work opportunities to help me gain my certificates and diplomas etc and can't even get organisations to take me on volunteer ... free labor...
I have been waiting for friends who will not abuse me
I have been waiting for an identity and right of passage to be allowed to be an equal in the work force and in social situations and in love
I have been working quietly academicly for years ... foolishly believing that the foundations of an education would give me better employment
better mind out looks, better reasoning.
I have been waiting for the answers of how to get this life right and be accepted.
I have been waiting for the lord to hear my prayers and needs
I have been waiting working quietly towards hope and love of a better future for many ...
if only some old people knew what it was like to wait for a nice man to treat you right ... for it to work out just once...
to have the right job and the nice house and income... a nice body.
I have waited more than most people of my age bracket. I have gone without more than most people of my age bracket
I do not own a car, I have never been overseas, I have never had a real boyfriend, I have never been married or had real friends. I have never owned a house, or never graduated from a thing.... I don't have one diamond, I have never been given expensive gifts from men or money.
and I have worked hard for what I do have.
please don't tell me I have not worked hard enough at my courses... at my jobs, at the men, at the friends, at my body, at my heart
please never tell me I have had it too easy unless you have been bashed as often as me just trying to find a life and friends and a nice guy
please never tell me I have had it too easy unless you have been without as I have.
we all struggle in our own way... and I am sick of people telling I have not and I am not worthy of a nice man or job, or body or set of teeth, or good skin or holiday, or friends etc...
czaristacrystals 36-40, F 1 May 20, 2012