IF You Ever Truly Were My Friend Read This All the Way Through

THIS IS THE TRUTH THE WHOLE TRUTH AND NOTHING BUT THE TRUTH ABOUT SWEETNEVILANGEL34......IF YOU TRULY CARE READ ALL OF THIS......iF YOU HAVE EVER SEEN THE MOVIE CRUEL INTENTIONS, THINK BACK TO THE LAST SCENE OF THE MOVIE WHERE SEBASTIAN HANDS ANNETTE A BOOK AND TELLS HER IF YOU REALLY WANT TO KNOW WHO I AM THEN READ THIS IF I NEVER HEAR FROM YOU AGAIN ILL UNDERSTAND.  THAT IS EXACTLY WHAT IM GOING TO DO WITH YOU ALL RIGHT NOW.  IM HANDING YOU MY BOOK DECIDE IF ITS WORTH READING OR TOSS IT MATTERS NOT TO ME.   IVE DELETED ALL MY FRIENDS AS AFTER YOU ALL READ THIS ((OPEN TO THE ENTIRE EP WORLD I HAVE NOTHING LEFT TO HIDE FROM HERE IM GOING TO BE TRUE TO MYSELF AT THE EXPENSE OF LOSING SOME FRIENDS ON HERE.  SOME OF YOU I TRULY CARED ABOUT AND CONSIDER CLOSE TO MY HEART AND WOULD HAVE DONE ANYTHING TO SHOW IT AND TO PROTECT YOU FROM HARM AT MY OWN EXPENSE OF SACRIFICE ON THIS SITE.

I JOINED THIS SITE BECAUSE I WAS HAVING SERIOUS ISSUES AND NEEDED OUTSIDE (UNBIASED) WAYS OF THINKING TO HELP ME UNDERSTAND MYSELF AND LIFE FROM VARIOUS PERSPECITVES.  FROM DAY ONE I MET PEOPLE WHO WERE VERY KIND TO ME, SWEET, CARING, AND AGAIN JUST RANDOM ACTS OF KINDNESS.  THE VERY FIRST STORY I EVER READ THAT TRULY CAPTURED MY MIND HEART AND POSSESSED MY MIND WAS A STORY ABOUT " RANDOM ACTS OF KINDNESS"  I NEVER TRULY KNEW WHAT THIS MEANT UNTILL I STARTED PARTICIPATING ON THIS SITE. 

I MET A FEW INCREDIBLE PEOPLE WHOM I STARTED TO CARE ABOUT ALOT AND THEY WERE SHOWING ME I WAS WORTH THEIR TIME AND ACTIONS TO TRULY MAKE ME FEEL WELCOME ON HERE.  I WAS HAVING ALOT OF FUN AND BEING A ROOKIE NOT SURE WHAT I WAS DOING HAD SOME GREAT TEACHERS.  THERE WERE FOUR OF YOU WHO I TRULY CARED ABOUT GETTING TO KNOW AND WAS EXTREMELY ENTICED BY YOUR WORDS AND ACTIONS ON ALL LEVELS TOWARDS ME.  MEN AND WOMEN IM BISEXUAL I HAVE A BOYFRIEND FOR 3 YEARS AND IVE HAD A GIRLFRIEND OR TWO IN THAT TIME.  FOR MEN IM TRULY HAPPY WITH MINE AND DESIRE NO OTHER.  THE RESPECTFUL MEN ON HERE I CARED TO GET TO KNOW.  NOW, THE LADIES IS A DIFFERENT STORY,  CERTAIN TYPES  ENTICE ME EASY WITH THEIR SPELLBOUNDING, MIND MELTING WORDS AND WAYS OF JUST BEING THEMSELVES, SWEET, FUNNY, SEDUCTIVE, FLIRTATIOUS AND JUST SHOWING ME IM WORTH THEIR TIME AND OPEN LIMITLESS, FRIENDSHIP.

HERE IS WHAT HAPPENED THE ENTIRE TRUTH.  I MET A PERSON WHO I FELT WAS THE MOST UNSELFISH, CARING, MOTIVATED, NURTURING, PLAYFUL, INTELLIGENT, ALROUND AMAZING PERSON IVE MET IN A LONG TIME.  WE STARTED TO BECOME GOOD FRIENDS AT LEAST I THOUGHT WE WERE. AFTER READING THIS IM NOT EXPECTING ANYONE TO EVER WANT TO BE MY FRIEND AGAIN IS WHY I DELETED YOU ALL. 

THIS PERSON, IS VERY TRUSTING AND GOODHEARTED AND IS THEIR TRUESELF ON HERE I FELT IT STRONGLY.  SHE MET A PERSON SHE FELT STRONGLY CARING FOR AND ONE DAY FOUND OUT THAT THIS PERSON MIGHT NOT BE REAL.  SHE WAS CRUSHED AND I FELT HORRIBLE FOR HER.  SHE DIDNT TRUST ANYONE AND SHE CONSIDERED LEAVING THE SITE.  I HATED HOW SHE WAS FEELING SO I TRIED TO PROVE MY REAL SELF TO HER BY OFFERING MY REAL PHONE NUMBER IN CASE SHE EVER WANTED TO CALL.  SHE DID NOT DESERVE BETRAYAL IN ANY MANNER AND I WANTED HER PAIN TO GO AWAY.  THE QUESTIONS STARTED SURFACING AND THE SIGNS WERE THERE THAT THIS PESON SHE WAS CLOSE TO WAS POSSIBLY ONE PERSON PLAYING THREE ROLES. SHE DIDNT THINK THAT WAS POSSIBLE SO I SHOWED HER IT WAS.

HERE IS THE WORST CONFESSION PROBABLY EVER MADE ON THIS SITE.  I RESEARCHED INTO THESE THREE PEOPLE....ONE I HAD MET A TIME OR TWO AND WAS EXTREMELY ENTICED BY JUST HER WORDS ALONE.    ONE I TALKED TO A FEW TIMES AND SHE SEEEMED VERY SWEET. AND THE LAST I NEVER TALKED TO AT ALL WE NEVER ACTUALLY MET.  i NOTICED ALOT OF SIMILARITIES BETWEEN THESE THREE PEOPLE AND SAW MY FRIEND GETTING MORE HURT AS SHE STARTED SEEING FOR HERSELF IT JUST MIGHT BE TRUE SHE WAS BEING FREINDS WITH AN IMPOSTOR.  MAYBE SHE WAS MAYBE SHE WASNT AT THE TIME IT MATTERED NOT TO ME BECAUSE WE ARE ALL NEVER GOING TO MEET ANYWAY WHO CARES WHO IS REAL ITS NOT A POPULARITY CONTEST FOR ME AT ALL I ONLY WANT REAL FRIENDS IN MY LIFE WHO MAKE EFFORT IWTH ME.  I DONT CARE ABOUT PICTURES OR SEX STORIES IM ENTICED BY THE WAY SOMEONE IMPACTS ME SENSUALLY, PLAYFULLY, FLIRTATIOUSLY, AND SWEET.   THERE ARE THREE MAIN PEOPLE WHO HAVE TREATED ME JUST THAT WAY AND I RETURNED THE TREATMENT.  THERE WAS ONE MORE I MADE EFFORT WITH BUT IT WAS ONLY RETURNED NEVER INITIATED IM NOT INTERESTED IN THAT TYPE OF PERSON FREINDSHIPS ARE ABOUT BOTH SIDES MAKING EFFORT " JUST BECAUSE " 

AS I SAW THE EFFECTS THAT MY FREIND WAS GOING THROUGH FROM THIS I DECIDED TO CREATE A WAY TO SHOW EVERYONE ON HERE THAT YES ITS VERY POSSIBLE AND IT CAN DESTROY LIVES. 

FOR THOSE OF YOU WHO HAVE COME ACROSSED A MAN NAMED KAOSTHEORY370......IM VERY SORRY TO INFORM THAT WAS ME PLAYING A MALE ROLE TO PROVE TO ONE MY FRIEND THAT IT CAN BE DONE, AND TWO , TO SHOW FIND OUT FOR MYSELF WHAT IT BENEFITS ANYONE TO BE SOMEONE THEY ARE NOT ON HERE.  

I FOUND THAT PICTURES ARE ALWAYS THE FIRST REASON WHY PEOPLE COME TO YOU ON HERE, SECOND IS YOUR STORIES .....I SERIOUSLY FEEL THAT EVERYONE ON HERE SHOULD DELETE ALL THEIR PICTURES AND WE ALL CAN BE ON THE SAME PAGE LEVEL WITH EACH OTHER.  I ALSO FOUND THAT ONE PERSON CAN BE A MAN OR A WOMAM ROLE ON HERE AND USE THE SAME EXACT WORDS AND STORY STYLE AND THE SAME PEOPLE THAT ARE ON BOTH THEIR FREINDS LIST WILL BE MORE INVOLVED WITH ONE GENDER MORE THAN THE OTHER.  ITS ABOUT MEN CHASING WOMEN, WOMEN CHASING WOMEN OR MEN LOL.....BUT THE POINT IS I WAS SWEETNEVILANGEL FOR A MONTH HAD THE SAME AS I CALL THEM ((BEST FRIENDS INTERNET RELATED LOL)) WHO WAS ALWAYS IN CONTACT WTIH ME AND I WITH THEM......AND SOME THAT WERE JUST ON MY LIST BUT IF I DIDNT MAKE EFFORT TO THEM THEY NEVER CAME TO ME AT ALL FOR ANY REASON....... AND THEN WHEN I  CREATED KAOSTHEORY370  THE SAME PEOPLE THAT NEVER HAD ANYTHING TO DO WITH SWEETNEVILANGEL WERE ALWAYS IN CONTACT WITH KAOSTHEORY WHAT THE HELL IS THAT ALL ABOUT.......ITS ABOUT THE GENDER, PIC AND THEN THE WORDS ...THIS WORLD IS BACKWARDS ITS HORRIBLE HOW WE CHOOSE OUR FRIENDS.  MY PROJECT WAS DESIGNED NOT TO DEFRAUD ANYONE AS I AM COMPLETELY AGAINST THE IDEA OF BEING BETRAYED SO I WOULD NEVER TRY TO DO THE SAME TO SOMEONE ELSE .......BUT TO DISCOVER WHO REALLY WAS MY FREIND BECAUSE OF ME OR BECUASE OF MY GENDER.  MY WORDS WERE THE EXACT SAME AND MY EFFORTS WERE THE EXACT SAME .....MY MAIN REASON FOR CREATING KAOS WAS TO FIND OUT IF WHAT MY FRIEND SUSPECTED WAS TRUE AND DRAW THOSE PEOPLE IN TO GET A CLOSER CHANCE OF FINDING OUT.   I DREW ALL THREE OF THEM IN NOT BECAUSE I WAS TRYING TO AS I WAS ONLY LOOKING FOR ONE BUT THE OTHERS CAME IN OUT OF THE BLUE BECAUSE OF MY WORDS ???   I HAVE A WAY IWTH MY WORDS AND IM VERY PASSIONATE ABOUT THE SMALL ESSENCE OF LIVING LIFE. 

I WANT TO APOLOGY PUBLICALLY TO ANY AND ALL OF YOU FOR WHAT IVE DONE I NEVER MEANT TO HURT ANYONE AND I ONLY STAYED ON KAOS LONG ENOUGH TO DISCOVER WHAT I NEEDED TO KNOW THE SITUATION WAS RESOLVED AND I DELETED HIM I WASNT ON THERE FOR ANY REASON TO BETRAY ANYONE UNFORTUNATELY IT DID.  I AM SINCERELY SORRY AND I THOUGHT ABOUT RUNNING BUT IVE BEEN TAUGHT TO OWN UP TO MY WRONGS AND TAKE THE CONSEQUENCES THAT AWAIT.  YOU ALL CAN HATE ME FOR THIS AND I WOULD NOT BLAME YOU .   THAT IS WHY I DELETED EVERYONE OFF MY FRIENDS LIST BECAUSE I DONT WANT ANYONE ON MY FRIENDS LIST THAT HASNT ONE ......READ ALL OF THIS FIRST..........TWO .......REALLY WANTS TO BE MY FREIND AFTER HEARING THIS NEWS.........IVE VOWED TO BE STRICTLY HONEST FROM THIS POINT HOWEVER THAT IS FOR YOU TO DECIDE IF I M WORTH THE ACTUAL CHANCE........

NONE OF YOU WILL EVER HEAR FROM ME AGAIN UNLESS YOU COME TO ME AS THIS WAS NOT EASY FOR ME TO CONFESS NOR WAS IT EASY FOR ME TO COMMIT THIS CRIME IN THE FIRST PLACE           A TRUE FRIEND SHOWS INTEREST REGUARDLESS OF GENDER, LOOKS, OR MISTAKES.....UNCONDITIONALL LOVE IS WHAT I BELIEVE IN ....FOR THOSE OF YOU I WAS CLOSE TO I TRULY WAS YOUR FRIEND AND I WOULD HAVE DONE ANYTHING TO PROVE IT TOO YOU AND I WILL NOT ALLOW SOMEONE I CARE ABOUT TO BE BETRAYED ....I HOPE SOMEDAY YOU CAN SEE EXACTLY WHO I AM AND JUST LOVE ME FOR ME.

ANGEL (( THE REAL ANGEL )) FOR THOSE OF YOU WHO TRULY KNOW ME ...SEARCH YOUR HEARTS BEFORE YOU EVER COME TO ME AGAIN.....IM NOT GOING TO BE JUDGED FOR THIS FROM THIS POINT IT TOOK ALOT FOR ME TO COME CLEAN.  ITS NOT A GREAT WAY TO MAKE FRIENDS.  BUT ITS WHAT I HAD TO DO FOR MY OWN CONSCIOUS CLEAR.  TAKE CARE AND I LOVE YOU ALL THAT I WAS CLOSE TO OR TRIED TO BE

ALWAYS ANGEL

 

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5 Responses Mar 10, 2009

hmmm ! i like honesty ! :-)

Angel, forgiveness is not easy to ask for, nor easy to grant, but true love for another makes forgiveness unnecessary, I hope that you see that you have true friends i also hope that the people who had been using the multiple profiles now can see the harm and how even though this a website the feelings are real........angel you are my friend, it takes courage to tell truth, especially if it might hurt you in the end........I'm your friend and always will be1<br />
CAP

I remember you! I read that story you put up a while ago about true friendship and how our actions can save others. It took real heart to say what you did here.

I am not in your circle but I found your story, and I'd like to be your fan! :)

Count me in your circle if you wish. I am no BS ask anyone here. :)