Trippy Trippy Trippy..my First TimeI first experienced with LSD when I was 19. It was mid Februrary I'd say, so it was quite chilly at night. Before tripping on this night, I had no interest in the hallucinogen, nor did I have any prior knowledge of its effects. My boyfriend at the time assured me it would be fine, and his stories and experiences with the drug had me pretty convinced. So we planned it all out. We bought about a ***** of hits which was on tie dye blotter paper if i'm not mistaken. The trip begun about 30-45 minutes in. Literally, one of the most life-changing, strangest, most interesting things I've ever done.
Uncontrollable laughter started in the beginning during the "climbing up". I noticed things started to begin look a little wavy and move slowly back and forth, getting larger and smaller. The physical feeling was acceptable in my book. It was like a constant tickling feeling in my stomach, but not in an unbearable way, just like a funny sensation. Maybe it could be described as butterflies, without the nervous feeling.
As the trip heightened, things really started becoming more distorted, but it was all alright. I really didn't know what to think of it all. Being a female, I already overanalyze everything, so rather than just sitting back and enjoying the trip and doing outdoor activities with the other 3 boys I was with, I was persistantly trying to analyze and come up with some sort of definite answer as to what this psychedelic was doing to me! I remember being content for the most part, but I felt as if I was just following my boyfriend and his two fraternity brothers around a lot. We made a journey from the fraternity house to J.J.'s so they could smoke a little pot. (I am not opposed to smoking pot, but at the time I was being drug tested so therefore I could not participate).
On the way there was when I realized that this was something real that I had gotten myself into. This was because as we were walking on the icy grass, I glanced up at the clear night sky only to see that the stars, which once were white and bright with a slight tinkle were now RED, LIME GREEN, and ROYAL BLUE. I've described this to so many people, because the image was just so vivid to me. They were twinkling these colors and it was absolutely beautiful. I bl
When we get to J.J.'s, I start spiraling downhill and was just completely terrified about my life, where it was heading, my legal trouble, and basically any negative thought I had about myself/life was filling my head. I got scared and began to cry. Matt, Taylor, and J.J. all talked me out of it though while bringing me back up to a more happy trip. I'm quite a pessimist in the first place though, so my mindset with the LSD could have been predicted anyway. I was fine after that though.
The only way I could describe what LSD does to your mind and thoughts is that any idea or thought you had prior to taking the drug are all explained and understood while on it. It was epiphany after epiphany. Each thought I had and wondered about before, now had this synapses in between them and everything was surfaced. That was enjoyably intense.
I remember when it came to conversation, I had stuff to say, but it was hard to mouth it. It was difficult to just "spit it out". There was a lot of laughing between the four of us all night/morning.
Another aspect about the psychedelic, is that no matter what was going on I felt this "wolf-pack" feeling between the four of us. When we went back to the fraternity house packed with drunk brothers and girls, loud music, flashy colorful lights, and what else have you, I felt this connection between us. It was like I just always wanted to make sure they were alright and not freaking out somewhere. I always enjoyed coming back to where they were at. It was always hard to leave them, whether it was to go get a beer for my boyfriend or to go to the restroom. I remember trying to leave the room 3 separate times but couldn't because something didn't want me to leave them. It was quite humorous actually.
I remember getting "stuck" in my boyfriend's room looking at the dancing Grateful Dead bears on a tapestry, observing his goldfish, and the most strange and enigmatic, getting stuck looking at myself in the mirror. It just did not look like me. I have brown eyes that looked black. It was trippy, and I didn't know what to think about it. Everything was just so different and strange. It was just so interesting to me!
Talking to people who weren't tripping, but were absolutely wasted was another strange thing. It made me nervous and I just walked away from a few people. There were long pauses in whatever we were talking about which caused me to walk away. There should have been no worries although, because of their drunkenness.
This trip lasted for about 8 hours, give or take. I actually drove my car the next morning to get breakfast (which I just stared at and couldn't eat) and 30 minutes down the road to a mountain I wanted to show the boys. It was so beautiful in the day time, and I've heard it's so much fun and better. Driving was not that difficult at all, just different. The trees swaying in the wind along with the natural wave from the acid was just mystifying and amazing to me.
After we got back, I was distraught about the time of the day it was, around 10 am, so I just went to sleep all day, and everyone else went their own way as well. There was not really a hangover, just a curiosity whether or not it was still in your system or not.
I can say that it was a wild ride and If you have a stable mind, prepare yourself and "respect" the drug, then go for it and give it a try. I have only done it a couple of times, but am willing to try it again under safe and comfortable circumstances.
The lack of knowledge and information on the brain and the drug itself is a scary aspect. Until scientists and whoever discovers and invents new technology for brain study and the effects of LSD, I'll probably try to keep my distance away from it, maybe.
This is my first post, and I am honestly just curious if other people have experienced the same thing. I just wanted to share this. Feel free to comment with any questions or comments. I'm totally interested!
AlphaOLuna 18-21, F 5 Responses 8 Aug 13, 2012