I've given up on ever seeing any other state than the one I have lived in all my life. I will never go to Europe, visit places I only dream about. My husband has been all over the US, and when I ask him to take me somewhere, his answer is always, Aww, I've already been there. I have wasted my adult life because I wasn't smart enough to go to college, my daughter is a freaking mess, I'm overweight and been told by mother all my life I was not good enough, pretty enoug, smart enough. She told me that nobody would ever kidnap me because under the first street light they would get a good look and let me go. Kinda sad life, if that's what you want to call it.