Death Might Be Better

I actually think often that dieing might be better than living with so much pain and betrayal.

I actually have considered before just doing what my adoptive mom wants and just running in the middle of the street. I never have but I have hurt myself before and at times when the pain of everything seems to control my life I want to die or just end everything. 

I don't know sometimes why I am still even trying to hang on. Maybe its the fact that I found my birth mom and her mom and the hope of finding the rest of what I lost so long ago.

 

The fear of losing them though is too much at times for me to even physcially be part of anything where I am.

kthimm1 kthimm1
18-21, F
Feb 21, 2009