Lost My Best Friend In The BitternessI never felt appreciated in my relationship.
And now that it's over after 12 years I don't care.
I miss my wife always and feel like I deserve the pain.
I hurt myself and her still by trying to save something that's already dead.
No counselour can help someone who doesn't want to forget.
I am living in a fantasy and it's eating me up inside.
I don't want to move on I'm not ready to forget.
Truth is I feel like I will spend my life in sorrow.
I may find new love but will only long for my first love.
Bitterness and anger are my worst enemy.
If she could let go together we could grow.
She says never gonna happen.
I prayed that my kids could have there parents together.
I feel like a failure now. I've let everyone down.
How can I move on I'm afraid and lost.
Bigdaddymclovin 26-30, M 1 Response 0 Jul 15, 2012