I'm Trying

Well considering that you are now re-evaluating this, means you have the potential to look into brighter sides :) considering "Hope" itself is a bright side of life :)

Nonetheless, let me tell you something which in my line of education (i am doing masters degree in performing arts) is a fact. The critics or people whose job is to pursue quality assurance for a drama or movie or whatever related to entertainment, they are good in their field because they have the nag of looking into the negative part of the job like errors and mistakes and that is what they are paid for.

May be and i am saying may be, all u need to do is channel even your negative energy into a cause or line of education/career.

On the other hand, having good friends around or even a partner can always keep you busy and away from negative thoughts :)

By the way love your username, it is real cute :)