everything in my life is going pretty much **** up atm. i've was really enjoying myself about a year ago. i was in love, had a great job in a club that i loved and uni was going fine. in august last year i came back from work one night and walked in on my girlfriend at the time having sex with my brother who i love with. my world litterally turned upside down and have become so depressed since. i did gain a good friend at work through sharing experiences and he helped me through quite a bit and i'm now moving in with him in june. basically i have become so depressed when i'm by myself. uni has gone properly **** up and ive got my first exam on tuesday and am so stressed because of it. i don't know what to do with my life and have found myself wasting day after day on facebook and drinking wine and smoking while progressively becoming more short tempered and irresponsable. i love my job and have just been promoted too but even at work, there is a new manager and my good friends i've made are now leaving. i don't feel as if i have anything to give any more and my head is completely ****** up. i know my ex wasn't good for me but she was completely in love with me even though she did such a horrible thing and i miss being loved. i don't know how to go out dating cos i've never done it because i was with her for so long and its left me really frustrated and upset. i've yet to have a night alone without crying.
can someone please leave me some kind of message with their interpretation on what they have just read. something i can use to get my life back on track