He's Been Playing With Me Over It

Okay so I'm a little different to others in this group... I am not married but I am in a committed relationship. My boyfriend and I are together for almost four years. Three years ago, I miscarried. A few months after that, I started to get a bit broody. I knew it wouldn't happen for me then so I just got on with it. Then, last year, I thought I was pregnant. I had all of the symptoms. I was tired, sick, weak, missed my period. I was so excited! It just turned out that I was battling a serious infection. He was so relieved when we found out that I was not pregnant, I was depressed. Since then, it has become unbearable. I didn't know how to cope with the feeling of wanting something so bad and not being able to have it. It drove us apart to the point where I began to question our entire relationship. But he loves me and told me last weekend that he wanted to go for it. I was so excited! I was getting a baby. I can't remember the last time I had felt so happy! But 48 hours after telling me I could have a baby, he took it all away. He said that he had more time to think about it and that it wasn't what he wanted. I've just been in a daze ever since. I can't remember the last time I slept. I can't concentrate on anything! He knew how much this meant to me and I can't understand how he could play me like that!