Born to Be a Mom
I have been married for 6 years to a wonderful guy, who I have known and been friends with since the age of 15. We even have the same birthday. All my life I have spent taking care of other people's children. I am currently the Director of a preschool and have been a teacher, nanny, babysitter, etc. since I was 11 years old. My husband and I have basically grown up together so he knows all this about me and knew I would want to have children. Although we got married young (22 yrs old) we knew each other well and talked about these things. We went through a rough patch about three years ago but made things work. Now, at the age of 29 I am really wanting to start trying to have a baby, or at least start trying within the year. However, my husband is finishing his masters and then wants to continue on to get his phd. I support him in these desires and dreams but for the life of me can't understand why my dreams can't happen at the same time. Being the Director of a preschool I can bring my child to work with me for free, everyday!! People would kill to have that privilege. Plus both of our families live in the area and my mom only works part-time and would love to take care of her grandchild a couple days a week. Everyone knows how much children mean to me and I am tired of acting like I am not ready to have a child. We are doing well financially, although if he goes to school for his phd I'm not sure how that will effect income. We could easily afford a small house/condo in the area. I just can't get him to take a step in that direction. He's talking five more years- I cannot wait five more years to have a baby. I am also a certified labor/birth doula and spent years learning and studying child birth, his sister is a midwife as well and my plan is to have a home birth. It kills me to see so many people everyday with big pregnant bellies or beautiful children. I want this so bad and I don't know what to do.