UghSo here's a little background. I was married to an active duty soldier who was absolutely too selfish to be a husband. After being together almost 9 years, going through 3 deployments and married a little over 4, we decided that it just wasn't going to work. Now, I was 25 at the time and we had planned to start trying for children over deployment and blah blah blah and then we divorced.
In October 2011, I got remarried to another soldier (which was not intended) who is 5 years younger than me. He actually turned 22 today and I will be 27 in August. Being around a military ba
When he was 19, his girlfriend gave birth a month early and his son never made it out of the NICU due to complications with his heart. I found out last night, the couple we were witnesses for at the JP, are now pregnant. My husband's best friend and his gf are expecting a baby as well. And those 2 are just small examples of the huge amount of people I know having kids. My husband keeps telling me, "Baby we have time, we have time". But I don't think he understands that because of my PCOS its going to be harder for me to get pregnant AND I'm obviously a lot closer to 30 than he is. I finally got revved up enough I told him the other day that I would say we had time too if I was only 22. He is beyond mature for his age though, don't get me wrong. He would make a remarkable father.
This morning is the first morning where I've actually been emotionally effected by "The Bug". I get depressed when I hear about all the people and it kills me to take my pill everyday, but its never been like this. I just keep bursting into tears randomly. I've read where people have said "Get a puppy" well we have a dog and 3 ferrets and they are more than treated like children because they are my children. My husband gets so frustrated with me when I get upset over hearing a new pregnancy announced. I don't know how to make him understand I really don't. There's a couple times since we've been married that I've suspected being pregnant, but of course we go get the tests, take like 4 or 5 at a time, and they come up negative. I just don't know what to do or how to get him to understand things from my point of view. Its not like I can say, "You don't understand how bad I want to be a parent" because he's actually had to bury a child and wants to be a father really bad. HELP!!!! I'm tired of being upset all the time. Somebody...Anybody...Advice....PLEASE!
MHOLMES0885 26-30, F 0 Feb 15, 2012