Baby Dreams.....

Oh, I know! Last year, we ended up owing when we did our taxes. My husband had to have more money taken out of his paycheck. I was like, really?! This year, hopefully we won't owe, but who knows. Even if we don't, there are always medical bills to be paid. The good thing is, that when you have kids you get a big tax refund.

I feel the same way! I'm 33 and have wanted to have kids since I was in my late 20s, but the timing was never right due to money and what not. I'm married and currently going to school part time, and working part time. My husband works full time and we're fine financially, but my doctor said I should start trying to have kids very soon if I want to have 2. Right now though even though we're fine financially, it would be very hard to support a child. I feel like I'd rather wait until I'm done with school, I can find a full time job, and we can buy a house. I'll be done with school in December however, I feel like it could take a while to find a full time job with this economy and job market, and then save money to search for a house. What if I'm like, 36 or 37 when we're finally ready? Meanwhile, while my biological clock is ticking. I don't really want to wait that long, because I want 2 and don't want to have to go through the risk of complications and what not. At the same time, I feel like if we just got pregnant and winged it, as far as finances and what not, we would run into problems and have a lot of stress. It's also hard, because both of my parents are gone. I have a mother-in-law however, our history is not that great. I think she may be turning around, but it's really hard to say. I wonder if anyone would throw me a babyshower. If nobody did, then my husband and I would be stuck paying for everything on our own. I mean, maybe some relatives would help, but it's hard to say. I just really want to be a mother though, and it seems like EVERYONE I know, friends, family has recently had a baby, or is having a baby. Why is that when you want something really bad, it seems like everyone else has it, or is going to have it? I tend to get sad when I go on facebook and see all of the pictures of everyone's babies, in the womb and out. My husband tells me not to worry about everything so much, that I will become a mother and God will take care of us, but..it's hard to have faith. My husband makes a good salary, but it just seems like nothing these days with the cost of everything being so high. Gas, groceries, health insurance, etc....