I Have Dreams About Having Babies, And Everyone Around Me Is Having Them..
Last night I dreamt I gave birth to a baby girl that was not my husbands. It belonged to a guy I liked in highschool but his name was changed to that of my cousin and had my cousins build. (My cousin has a wife and 2 kids of his own, one being a 6 month old girl). I took the father to see the baby and we cuddle hugged, proud of what we made. It was wierd.
I also dreamt I wasnt taking good care of the baby. That i skipped feedings, didnt finish feedings, didnt burb it, forgot to change the diaper, left it alone..
What does it all mean? Makes me feel like crap.. but having baby dreams always makes me yern that I had one..I've been wanting a baby for years but just the past year and a half or so ive really had the strong emotional feelings of wanting a baby and seeing everyone around me having kids and my husbands sister being pregnant at 19 and not taking care of herself in the pregnancy, or going to give it any kind of decent life makes me sick that she gets a wonderful gift and I can't have it yet because we're trying to be smart and plan a baby when we can afford it. But part of me doesnt care, I just want to have a baby..