Confused

When people ask me why I'm single, my reply is this: "I don't know. I want one, but I don't want one."

I always tell them that I don't want to be in a serious relationship right now because it can distract me from my true goal (getting high grades in school), and I don't want that to happen. Well, it's true. I've never had a boyfriend before, but I fell in love with this guy in high school---we were what people called "having a mutual understanding"---and he made me feel happy, but in the end I didn't notice my grades dropping until I couldn't do anything about it. It's not that I failed my subjects or anything (far from it) but I didn't get my target grades. :(

Now I'm in uni. I love my grades. But it gets lonely sometimes. I want to feel that "in-love" type of happiness, the one you get when you're in a relationship with someone.

Only now I notice that most boys in (my) university aren't interested in getting a girlfriend. Or maybe I'm just unfortunate and every single guy I became attracted to just aren't interested in girls. Hahaha.

beryllium beryllium
18-21, F
2 Responses Jul 10, 2010

A SIMPLE ADVICE. KEP TO UR GOAL TIL U ACHIEVE IT. A SERIOUS RELATIONSHIP WIL B ENJOYED AFTER REACHIN UR FUL POTENTIAL

Good friends could be better than boyfriend at times, glad for u =)