Wrong To Want A Divorce

I married my husband 13 years ago. We have 2 kids together. One is mine from a previous and an adult. I am a stay at home mom and wife. He's a hard worker. But a total financial idiot. We are always in the red. He spends money on stuff. Just stuff we don't ever need and will never need. I only spend his money on food and the necessities. I am not attracted to him at all. And everything he says and does is annoying. We went to a marriage counselor about 7 years ago for his addiction to online ****. And the therapist just told me how lucky I am to be married to a fireman and how he is such a great guy and that I am wrong for feeling this way. We never went back. And now I feel like I'm going crazy. I need to leave, but my kids are always saying how they would be so hurt if we ever got a divorce like their friends. I feel like I'm stuck, just so I don't upset the kids. My youngest worries me the most about it. He is 12 and sees lots of what his friends are going through. It worries him so much. I don't know what to do. Stay so I don't upset my son? Keep acting like nothing is wrong and be miserable inside? I just want to leave and be alone. I'm so depressed. I'm so confused. How do I start over? How do I leave?
An Ep User An EP User
1 Response Jan 20, 2013

I understand what you are going through, my husband is horrible with money also even to the point of spending our kids savings accounts. I have a 13 yr old daughter who is probably going to give me trouble when I leave. Yes, I've made up my mind to leave. I can't stand being around him anymore. I would suggest that you somehow get to where you are not dependent on him for support.