I Want to Leave Unhappy Marriage But Scared
iam 25years old and I have been married for almost 4 years. I am a mother of 2 years old. My husband is very hard to get along with. In another words, he is an a++hole. He is always in bad mood and curse me and my son out(sometimes seriously and sometimes with joke) Every little mistake I make is blamed but mistake that he makes should never be blamed. He has been acting like a king. My husband says that every thing my son and I do is so irritating sometimes. That is how my marriage life has been last 4 years.
About two years ago, I completely lost sex drive towards him all the sudden. Maybe because of the birthcontrol pill that I was taking, but I was just sick of having sex. I tried, but it was nothing but pain. So our relationship became even worse. Everyday he came home with attitude, and never wanted to talk to me.
In april, I told him that I did not want to be with him anymore. We signed the separation agreement. However, we kept living together for our son. While I was in the messed up situation, I met one guy at work. He is completely opposite type from my husband. He is gentle and always nice to me. He never tried to hide his feeling and affection. He hugs me and it makes me feel so peaceful. We fell in love and it has been like this ever since then. Everytime we see each other, I really feel happy. BUT I can not leave my husband because of my son. Also, I am scared. Once I leave this house, and things did not go well with the other guy, I have no place to go.(I am by myself in this country:no family) I tried to leave the guy over and over and over, but I just love him too much. And he keeps telling me to move in with him but I am so scared. I am scared what and how this would affect my son and I am scared of being homeless....what woud you do if you were in my situation????