Time In Need Of A Friend

Im a 21 year old widow and i feel like im caught in the middle of limbo. It seems like after my husband passed away i lost my friends. i dont know who to talk to anymore. my married friends are too busy with their new lives and my single friends dont know what to say to me.. so where is my best friend? He passed away april 5th..he was always there for me, whether i wanted to talk about housewive of orange county or issues i had with my family he was always there to listen no matter what.. I wish i had that someone to talk to about everything im going through. it would be nice not to have to keep everything in and pretend that im okay when in realitty my life is shatterd and i dont know what to do anymore. I try to be optomisc and see friends from highschool but all they want to do is party and go to clubs thats not me right now.. i need comfort and stability plus. I feel like i have social anixety now and i have lost my idenity. Everytime i used to go out for years i was always with my husband we did everhything together.. and now i cant even go up to  a friends house alone. I dont know who i am with out him. How do i learn to make new friends? How do i get over my axiety of meeting new people?? I wish I had a friend to help me figure these questions out..
StephieB11 StephieB11
18-21
4 Responses Aug 12, 2010

. i lost my husband 5 yrs ago at the age of 24 and he was my best friend in the whole world too. no relationship will ever be the same as the bond the two of you shared. keep that sacred relationship locked inside your heart and make a new space for people to come in. he wouldnt want you to deal with this alone and you know that too. you have an angel by your side so keep on keeping on,one foot in front of the other,one day at a time....life will start looking up and you WILL experience joy again some day,i promise

hey there! i feel ur pain completely. every word in ur story describes me right now. i am 28 and i just lost my husband almost 2 months ago. i have also grown away from old friends. the only ones left are the friends that we had together and they r all married. i just feel even more alone when im w/ them than if im sitting in an empty room. it makes me miss him even more. every where i look im reminded of the love we shared. but i feel so lost, and i havent found any one person to help me. dont get me wrong i have support from family and a grief support group, but im too broken. i feel like this will never be fixed, no matter how many people tell me "time w/ heal all". im always here if u need to talk b/c i always need to talk.

lossing what is your closes friend, is never easy. I have seen it in my family and my baby sister will see it more than any one. It maybe good for you to look for a pen pal, some one that what you are going through, they are going through. It may take some looking, but even on here now and then one turns up. No one can replace a love one, but there are some that care

lossing what is your closes friend, is never easy. I have seen it in my family and my baby sister will see it more than any one. It maybe good for you to look for a pen pal, some one that what you are going through, they are going through. It may take some looking, but even on here now and then one turns up. No one can replace a love one, but there are some that care