Do you ever get to the point where you just yearn for some intimate relationship? You just want someone to talk to, someone to feel close to, but you can't even keep up a conversation? Feeling so void of everything, but NEEDING comfort at the same time. So much that you'll start a conversation with someone, anyone, but it never goes anywhere. You can't even make it past the answering of "How are you?" It's always the same. First the hellos, then the how are yous, which are always answered with a lie, then the what are you doings, always vague, or just lies, and then that's it. You can't really tell someone how you're feeling, or what you've really been doing, because it's so personal, and you've got no one to be personal with. You can't have anything in common in with anyone, because you don't like anything anymore. You're not funny anymore, or witty, it's all gone and there's no way to get it back. No one wants to talk to you anymore because there's nothing left to talk to. You don't even really want to talk, you just want comfort. Want to feel close to someone. And it happens over, and over, and over again. Day after day just wanting comfort. You're desperate. But no matter how empty you are on the inside, you know people can still like you for the outside, and it's seeming more and more tempting. People can want you, and you don't even have to talk to them. They want to be around you, but not for the same reason you want to be around them. You can even feel close to them physically, and even though its not what you want, it's still better than nothing. What should you really expect? How could someone really like you, when you hate yourself?