I've only recently come to realize how lonely I am. I only have one occasional visitor and she only comes to ask me for money. She isn't a lover, I'm afraid she smokes crack. I think it might be the depression that keeps me isolated. The loneliness started about the same time everything lost its shine. I quit performing and entertaining and quit my job and all my blinds are drawn down. This site is my social life and I'm very glad it's here,. I've met the kindest and most supportive people, since I started visiting. It would be nice to get together for coffee though.