The Edge Of Friendship

My best friend took me to a concert for my birthday and I had a panic attack in the mosh pit right as the show started. We'd spent the entire day, 7am till 7pm, lining up and waiting for this show. We had planned this for months. It took all of five minutes for the paramedics to pick me up and drag me out of the pit and into the first aid office where I sat hyperventilating and giggling hysterically before finally they called my parents to take me home. I was petrified to go back into that concert...just hearing the music from outside made me want to curl up and die. It was the mst terrifying thing I have ever experienced. A day later I was abused on facebook for posting a status wishing people wouldn't complain about their weight (I am also diagnosed with anorexia) and my friend publicly posted a lot of nasty passive agressive things about me and gifts I had bought him. We don't talk much anymore, but I miss him like anything. Every time I remember how much fun we used to have together, its ruined by every horrible thing he ever said about me, our friends, and our lives. I don't think I'll ever forgivehim for that.
A panic attack is not your fault. Yes, they don't always come at the best times, but if your friends truly understand and respect you, they'll know you can't control it. It's not all about them. Expect them to be annoyed once in a while, but don't lose hope...true friends will always be there for you. :) As far as anyone else goes...don't make my mistake and hang on to people in your life who are horrible to you, no matter how much you think you owe them or how much they might change.
Karryon Karryon
18-21, F
1 Response Sep 20, 2012

That guy is a jerk, how could he blame you for what happened? I hope you will find better friends.