Unable to Connect?

Sometimes, friends are easy to make.  There is a split second interval when two souls connect and from that moment on, you enjoy talking to this person and are interested in the comings and goings of his/her daily life.

Sometimes, you are interested in being friends with certain people, but they don't feel the same way towards you.  For some reason, you can't get them to want to talk to you, they don't include you in their lives, and plan events without you.

I used to have such an easy time making friends.  Freshman year, I made a plethora of friends who were genuinely interested in my friendship.  Those friends are still around today, but it seems as though with each passing day, it becomes increasingly more difficult for me to meet new people and strike up engaging conversation.  Could I really be that undesirable as a friend???

I am in this program currently at BU.  It is a summer program for High School students to experience college life and meet new people.  Unfortunately, I was forced to commute to the program instead of living on the campus for 6 weeks.  As a result, I don't get to spend as much time meeting and hanging out with the people in the program.  It seems as though everyone has gotten close already in the first two days, while I twiddle my thumbs and sit while others are out on the town.

Maybe I am not trying hard enough, but I feel like a big part of this is my commuting.  I am going to miss out on so many unforgettable moments, moments that will haunt me due to their nonexistence. 

I even feel like my closest friends are drifting away and aren't being replaced by newer friends.  Someday, I fear that I will have no friends and be clueless about what to do about it.
gmoon12090 gmoon12090
18-21, F
1 Response Jul 3, 2007

It is difficult to be the only, or one of the only, people in a group not living in the common housing. Be outgoing and you will meet people, but it will be harder than if you were all sleeping under one roof. Don't worry, they groups aren't trying to exclude you.