What I Want...

I just want people to stop pretending to be my friends. I've gone through my whole life without having real friends. And when I got into high school, I'd made friends with a group of people and we were always together for all four years. Then it came time to go to college and now I only talk to two of them, but we aren't as close as we once were. It sucks.

So, I just want to have at least one person to be my real true friend, and to be there for me no matter what. And of course, I'd do the same for them.

rockgirl rockgirl
18-21, F
1 Response Jan 9, 2007

I'm sorry that you had to lose your friends like that. I'm sorry to say this but that is very common when people transition from high school to college. When by the end of my senior year in high school I was so upset that my friends were so self absorbed that I stopped talking to all but one of them. When I went to college I had a difficult time finding close friends. I did eventually make out good but even then I would have to say there seems to be another repeat of high school at the end of college. I had amazing friends that seem to just drop off the face of the earth by the time I graduated. I have a feeling that is just a part of life. No one really prepares young people for it. I wish someone prepared me for all of it. I think when you are young, you go through so many friends because everyone is developing at different rates and in different places. Some people stop developing and never mentally leave high school when you are mentally ahead. It just doesn't work when that happens. I discovered that today.<br />
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You never know, one day some of your high school friends whom you haven't talked to for years might end up making a reappearance. That is what happened to me. We met years later and at that point matured enough to discuss our differences and we have a really good friendship now. With our situation we learned how to communicate and that's whats made the difference. <br />
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I have a feeling that when you make friends later in life they are more likely to stick around because by the time most people are 30, they have become who they are and are done moving in different directions. (I'm not quite certain since I am not 30 myself. I am only speculating.) <br />
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I feel the same way as you feel right now. I think it's rare to find a friend who will be a true friend back.