What I Thought Were Friends...

Haha, my exprience will friends has been tolorable then most. My "friends" don't stab or betray me, they just leave me or never talk to me.

I figure true friends want to talk to you as much as you want to talk to them. Won't they call? Or will I always have to be the pro-active in every friendship. I would just love to be treated the way I love to treat others.

Every year for Christmas, I make my "friends" gifts. Last year I made picture frames with name poems inside. You know, like E- Energetic, ect. Something for each letter of their name. I have done this for the last couple of years, but I don't ever get gifts in return. I make painstakingly special gifts and next Christmas I do the same. I know it is better to give then to receive, but if someone put as much effort into something for me...

And for every birthday, I make a bracelet. You think some people would get me something for my birthday. HA! Only if I invite them to my birthday party will they get me something. I love giving and making people feel special, but I hate the one-sidedness of it all.

I also feel like I am falling away from the friends I thought I had since 6th or 7th grade. In my youth group, people are starting to treat me differently but I am upstairs with the adults. I understand that I am changing and am no longer down there anymore. If they were my real friends, would'nt they meet me wherever I am. Should they still want to hang out with me? Just because I am not in that certain group does that make me a adult and no longer a peer? I am only a teenager! I can't hang out with the adults because I don't know if they will take me seriously but I am at a different stage then my peers in the youth group. I need true friends that will understand where I am.
SavedByGrace14 SavedByGrace14
22-25, F
2 Responses Aug 11, 2007

i totally understand you 1000000%. its hard to find out where you fit in especially with friends. i can totally relate to the one sideness thing. sometimes i feel like i put soo much effort into a friendship & that my friends just take it for granted & i ge tnbuthing in return. but if i think about it, id rather work for the relationship than have no friendship at all.

Thank you for your comment I agree with you 100% and understand how you feel as well try not doing the things you usually do for them and watch it take an even bigger turn. Ppl grow at different paces and it's like your me but in your own situation(moving faster then everyone else) Well I guess we should both try finding friends on our levels. In the end everything will turn out for the better just wait and see.