I Am Seeking A Bisexual Female Unconventional Live In Caregiver

This is the first time I have actually come to the conclusion that I need help to live day to day and am asking for it !
Okay for those of you who use labels to describe themselves
these are the labels given to me by my doctors
I have arthritis, bursitis, tendonitis, degenerative disc disease, anxiety, depression, fibromyalgia, IBS there are probably more i just cant think of them right now, if you need proof though I have them written on my social security paperwork LOL
I have had 8 car accidents and 6 surgeries
Okay anyway I take no pills at all !! Can you imagine that ! all that stuff and no pills !
I am a medicinal marijuana patient who vaporizers her cannabinoids, for those who do not understand that word then you are just a pot smoker !
When all these labels starting appearing I started changing my lifestyle, ie to include my diet and my environment, this takes time, it has now been 4 years that I have been on SSDI, I waited 8 years for them to make up their minds !
So my lifestyle is now Drama and stress free, and my diet has no crap in it !
I use only filtered water to drink and to put on my body, I do not microwave anything, since I have not owned one in 6 years
I can go on and on here with all the changes I made to my lifestyle
The reason I am writing this story is to find someone who can help me, with the little things every day
such as laundry, dishes, cooking, shower help, and help with shopping in stores help with the kitties, I have three
I can pretty much get through each day but it is difficult
Okay that is the easy part of what I am seeking at least easy to explain !
I will just say exactly what I want
I am poly and bisexual I have been searching for someone who will nurse me, as in induce lactation but it is not sexual for me
The reason I wish to be nursed is to give me the peace of mind to be in a bliss state of mind
I have been researching this for many years, the state of mind that a woman enters when she is being nursed is what will give me the strength to live every day to my fullest !
I am not always the best person with words so I am trying my best here
okay so there is still more to learn here
If you have seen the tv episode of Grey's anatomy or if you understand the fact that when women are sexually stimulated they do not feel pain. Well with that being said that is why I am seeking a Bisexual female, who will also have an intimate relationship with me
The reason I wish to nurse and be nursed is also so that I get the added bonus of breast milk, which can heal on so many levels !
This is not a job posting !
It is to find someone who wants to be with me
I am seeking a caregiver, lover, best friend and you must be a woman who works from home or can work outside the home and still care for me
Sorry but I wish to love a woman not a man I only want to watch her make love to other men ! and a few other things !
So you must be single, poly,and Bi
We also must at least have other common interests
I am not your typical girl
BTW I do not look disabled at all !
I am 5'6 130
I believe in God, ET's, anything relating to Love ! Coexistence, no borders, Love music !!
Maybe you just need a cheaper place to live, or you enjoy caring for people ?
Maybe you want an ANR also !
I hope this story helps me find the answer I need
Peace, joy and divinity
Little Unicorn