Married For The Wrong Reasons?

So, been married now for nearly 7 years. When we met, there was a connection. However, it wasn't what I believed at True Love. When you don't even have to think about being patient, kind, etc. We married out of faith. What's that? Spiritual and stupid really. There are some things that I can't explain, but, we believed it to be the right thing to do. Once engaged, the tension began. There have been glimpses of happiness, but for me.. no real connection. I expect that a couple that experiences true love will feel so free to be themselves, without reservations. After all, God is Love and where Love is there is freedom. We now have children and I am seriously considering getting out. I believe I've had some taste of true love. Not with my husband unfortunately. I will say, there the choice to love has been there. I've chosen to love him through a lot of crap. But, I want someone who I can be me with. Fully me.. The wonder in my soul believes that there is "true love" out there. It keeps me wanting more. Believing that there can me more.
experiencingnow experiencingnow
26-30, F
Jan 13, 2013