I don't even know how to address this problem,
outside suggestions only make it worse.
Keep me sitting here---rehearsing verses,
like I know how a conversations going to go.
My insecurity surfaces,
we lock eyes with a staring contest.
I want to see how this monster
became a part of me.
How I let it in---let it fester
like the pest we love to hate.
But suddenly, I see it's worth.
Like a teacher preaching some po0sitive words.
Only I've latched on to it's shadow side,
suppressed it, locked it in, for later examination.
It keeps trying to teach me some lesson again.
And instead of motioning forward,
I'm rotating in circles, destined to the same fate,
until I graciously accept the date
to donate this vibe to the collection plate.
Learn from my mistake.
Align to the New Way.