I Can Feel It. Somewhere Under There...

And I hate it.
Maybe because it feels like a weakness.

Why should I need anyone to tell me that I am good enough? Or that I fit in somewhere?
Or that I am good.
Why do I have this obscure awareness of this thing that lurks beyond, making me feel unworthy? (Wait, the why is irrelevant now. Let me move on...)

I feel like I am not good enough unless I have approval.
Cinderelly Cinderelly
36-40, F
4 Responses Sep 29, 2007

You don't need other people's approval, you don't need to fit in somewhere, you don't need to be good enough. You just need to approve of who you are, fit in by being who you are, you just need to love yourself. Yes, you may want to have all those but you should embrace who you are. Stand out of the crowd show them how you're one hell of a person to love. Accepting yourself and loving yourself is far more important then having others to accept you. Besides you are already accepted, by me and god and MANY MORE.

I love you and accept you for who you are. You are a beautiful and wonderful person, go and show the world your light. - Smiles, love and light. RavenWolf

You know... you are who you are. :)<br />
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Which is just the way the world is; the current present is an undeniable fact - all of us who would wish better of ourselves can not deny the present for what it is. That may sound like a platitude, but to me it seems like an indisputable truth of the linear nature of time.<br />
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In my opinion, the need for approval is not bullsh*t, nor is it sad. It is simply a fact of the present, which may or may not play a part in your future, and is no doubt rooted in your past. If anything, it is a clue for you, I think, your self telling yourself about the road ahead, and the path you've already travelled.<br />
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I suspect that removing such a thing from your future begins with true acceptance of the self, including what stern judges might call flaws (but the more peaceable know simply as the parts of a greater narrative).<br />
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Perhaps it is just a search for surrogate approval, a ghost of wanting something that was never going to be forthcoming. That's the past - at the end of the day, until we have true self acceptance, I think peace and serenity are always just out of reach. <br />
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...and I know it`s such bullsh*t.<br />
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...and i know it`s so sad.